I can’t help but be utterly embarrassed that I’m still in high school. Everyone I love is off in the Big world doing Big things and having autonomy over their lives while I’m here writing essays about the Nicholas II and feeling sorry for myself!!! Oh, boo-hoo poor me.
HANNAH I love you I must publicly proclaim this love!!!!!
My friend was having a sad day so I thought I could cheer her up by playing music in the art room for us but then I got embarrassed playing my music and had an anxiety episode and had to press my hands into the table because they were shaking so much I couldn’t draw and I had to do breathing exercises HA HA… I’m such a fool.
Today was very exhausting but mostly good fun. We took a bus trip into town and my pal got me a lil ice-cream. I spent about 5 hours in the art-rooms talking to inquiring parents and doing work. We listened to Shirley Ellis which was a good laugh! It’s too bad that coming home to my mother’s backwards views put such a turn on it and I end up going back to my old sooky mope of a self.
Me too! I’ve been feeling so unsure of myself but hopefully I’ll float back down to earth. I have been feeling much closer to my friends at school and I am getting a lot of support from them. I’ve started emerging from my Depression and been more open with them and they are reciprocating! I’ve still got far to go (obviously) and it will never completely go but I really am very excited for the future.